Lovely Wink,
I wish you that you are now in a better place and can be happy again. I was a victim of violence as a child and because of it I got depressed for many years and also tried to committ suicide. Crochet & my dog saved my life...
It deeply hurts, that you could see no other way out.

Rest in peace! You stay in our hearts, unforgotten and in love. <3
You're such a lovable and inspiring one... You'll be missed...